Thursday, January 17, 2013
I’ll be quick with this. I’d hate for this to be a very long entry, and plus I’m still extremely tired. I’ve been very tired as of lately and I’m not efficient or stable at all with this lack of sleep. I wonder how I’ll be able to cope at a high law firm working insane hours. Three days in one:
I arrived late on Tuesday. I woke up pretty damn late and left pretty damn late. I’m not surprised that I was pretty damn late. It was wrong of me That was bad. That was wrong of me. It’s my fault for waking up so late and I had no excuse for that. But the lessons went on by alright. Geography was cancelled, and Rittim, Ailie and I just sat there resting near the heaters listening to Flaws by Bastille. It’s by far my favourite song so far this year. “When all of your flaws and all of my flaws are laid down one by one.” It’s a lovely song. We just sat there for an hour doing nothing but listening to music. Rittim also showed us this dodgy black market website where you could find the most black market of things, but that’s all I’m going to say about that. My History teacher walked on by and noticed us sitting there doing nothing and came in to speak to us briefly about what we were doing. That was a little bothersome, we just wanted to sit by the radiators.
Then I had History the next period, and since most people had exams that day there were only five of us. We worked on laptops researching into German chancellors in the 1960s and 70s, and with my earphones I had Flaws playing. I lost my earphones some time after that, what a shame.
I don’t recall break time, and I said I’d be quick about this. Period three was lovely. In Psychology we spoke to Jane Hershey, a woman in her sixties whom at the age of six had to take care of her mother on her own. It was so devastating to listen to her stories and to have a Skype call to her and to see that she looked well was heartwarming. Honestly, the things she has been through. Do definitely give her a look up.
For period four I didn’t do much either. I spoke with Zahrah briefly before going to the library to find Harry, Tomide and Rittim and we spoke about Rittim’s party that’d gone on by, and how much of a cockblock some people were. It was funny, we all agreed on the same person being the cockblock. Rittim also showed Tomide this website…
Lunch time arrived and I went along with Ashley to his house for him to check if his Spiderman comic book had arrived. It hadn’t, but it was pretty cool to know that he was into that. And that he enjoys Zelda. We sang some of the songs he knew, and he actually wants to borrow Wind Waker from me. It’s with Melda but she’s finish with it now. I should collect it on Sunday. And when we got back I did what I usually do - drift around and show my face to everyone.
Period five saw me in the library with Florence, Sandeep, Karanjit and the year twelve pair Gurpreet and Sukhvir. They’re literally inseparable. Like I can’t even emphasise how much of a pair they are. People try call Sadian and I a pair, but there’s nothing at all between us compared to the two of them. And it’s hilarious, because I think they’re great guys. I think they’re annoying as fuck, but good guys. Gurpreet actually does Taekwondo and wants to represent Britain in the 2016 Olympics, and I think he’ll be able to do it. He showed us an image of his tournament in Belgium last year, and so he isn’t even faking it. Sukhvir is just a bit of a laugh. But they seem smart under all their laughs and annoying banter, which is what I find interesting. Perhaps they’re a manifest of over-compensating. My friends are really relaxed and calm in general while these two are constantly annoying as fuck, and maybe that’s why they interest me a little. Sukhvir kept calling this girl Jasmeet in my year cute and she sat a few seats away from us. For a laugh I went up to her and her lot and striked a conversation to see his reaction, aha.
Period six was as any other period has been.
And then when leaving school I took my time at the lockers and was more or less one of the couple last people to leave. And when I left the crescent moon was out, and birds in the distance in a V formation flew away. And Kimita was at the bus stop alone wit a large Coke bottle. It was her birthday that day. And on the bus Space Lion played and I could see birds in sky and the dull clouds and all of it all. But it wasn’t that cold anymore… - Music.
And then I went home, ate, watched an episode of Game of Thrones and then went to bed. I then woke up at five in the morning and did work until school started.
Get this. I arrived well on time because I’d walked with Neeraj after buying a bagel from McDonald’s, and I’d told my form teacher that I was going to the private study room to print work out. And she should remember this well enough. And so I go, but later on in the day when I arrive home my mum comes to tell me that they’ve rung her up to talk to her about my lateness, and how I was late that day. I get it, I’ve been late a lot as of recently, but I wasn’t late on Wednesday. That was annoying.
Period one was as usual. Period two was also as usual, but this time we were preparingfor a 40 mark question in Geography. A 40 mark question in Geography is far different than a 45 in History or a 40 in Politics. There’s so much more work to cover and it’s a far greater synoptic question than others. It’s a little scary - no one has hit more than 30 out of 40 so far. I plan to change that.
In Psychology we began to learn about attachments, and why we have attachments and why these bonds are formed. And it’s interesting; later that day on the walk home after True Colours these foxes were trailing after each other and you could see the attachment they had for each other. I don’t know, but I guess it was a really good application of the lesson.
I’d be lying if I said that I’d done work the following period. The only thing I got done was some editing of my old Euthanasia article. Brushing it up I suppose. Ramya sat next to me reading The Perks of Being A Wallflower and she’s really, really enjoying it.
And lunch for the most part was hung with Serena, Harry, Claire, Zahrah and Shakeela. Others came and went, but it was essentially us because we’d secured the seats. And it was a good lunch. We just spoke about the most random of things. Unfortunately I think it’s hard to record down how each individual friend acts and so their style of conversations could be understood more in this. It’s a shame. From erections in the cold to a video of a man slicing off animals’ heads like it was a game our conversations were random.
Form time was fine. There’s more interaction now between the year twelves and our year, so that’s cool. Even then half the form still doesn’t talk. It’s probably because of our form tutor, she still doesn’t know us that much.
The magazine period today went fine. Yeah, it went fine. Things are moving; Jasmine has done an article with Zafiyah on the recent film, The Hobit, and we’ve also got two new members whose name I’ve forgotten. Jahedul and Aysha have their article ideas ready and they plan to write it for next week, and Komal has brought us two new ones. Nadia too. Nadia also showed us a good design for the front cover, and it looked really, really good. They’re all working hard. Jagjeet is also working on a Photography section, too. Things are looking good.
Myself, Florence and Sadian then headed to the library to find Aadesh and Sandeep already there. Haajra was also there which was cool. Haajra had a friend with her who wore a hijab and had piercings on her arm. I mentioned the hijab because the juxtaposition of a hijab and piercings of an arm is interesting to mention. She’s a quirky one, she is. I know her name but I’ll probably spell it wrong here. Fayza, Faizah, Faisah. I don’t know. But she was interesting, really interesting. You wouldn’t have even known that her hijab was a hijab at all with her design. She actually wants to do fashion and she had all of us hanging around her as she explained to us that she knew a famous hijab fashion designed. Shabeena who had arrived some time later following an interview at Imperial was the most interested of all, and it was interesting watching them talk. She also had a piercing at the back of her neck and she plans to do more, apparently. After Florence, Sadian and I went to get food Mohamed popped up at the library all of a sudden, and that was cool. I really like him with the Seven Kings lot, like he gels really well with them. The group of us at the library that day were myself, Rittim (who we met on the way back from buying food), Sandeep, Mohamed, Sadian, Florence, Neel, Naran, Shabeena, Faizah, Haajra and then Hina. Yeah, Hina came. She came because she wanted to start volunteering at True Colours aswell, and so Sadian had her come along. And Meera, too. Meera suddenly appeared from the other side of the library around seven. I didn’t even know she was there. But yeah, other common people you see at the library were there as usual, and our group was scolded a lot by the librarians. We speak too much in the private area apparently. I’m not surprised. At least I got my work done.
I was really tired at the time and so I contemplated going to True Colours that day quite a bit. I went in the end and I’m very glad I did so. We introduced Hina to the members of the youth centre and also to the others volunteering. Not many people were volunteering because of exams, but we introduced her to Zakeela (Bev) and Ayesha at the least. Ellie, too. And we introduced her to Mo’, Tyrell, Luke, Emilie, Alex, Aiden and others. She actually went to the same primary school as Aiden. Ailie and Rhidhi, too. And you could tell that Hina really was taking in a lot from her environment. I hope she’ll enjoy it here. She even combed my hair - that was a laugh. I hadn’t combed it that day and so she sat me down and combed out my hair properly, and it was a pretty darn good job. And well, yeah. We also found out that Mitch who volunteers at the youth centre is only 17, and he looks at the least 19. He has stretched ears and he took our one of his stretched pieces and I stuck my finger through the hole and it was so goddamn weird. Aha, and I learned that Bev and Ayesha are actually a year younger than us. I wouldn’t have realised seeing as they’re usually with Greta and Dion and May who’re my year. But yeah, I enjoyed that session and I hope Hina did too. They also gave us our own True Colours T-shirt, that was really appreciated. We’re supposed to wear them as volunteers and a fresh batch just arrived, so that was cool. I gotta pick up a pair for Le-My for when she’s able to come back again.
And when it was over and Sadian had caught his bus, I waited with Hina. And when her bus came I gave her a hug, she got on the bus and I waved her off. And then came Mitch and the supervisor Sam. I thought the person called Sam was the guy with Aspergers, and so when asked by Mitch if I knew Sam I said, “Is Sam the big, tall white guy?” and she started to laugh really hard. And I started to laugh too when I realised she was Sam, and that she was deputy-supervisor. And that she was 22 - she doesn’t look it at all! She’s about 5”4 and has a young face. That was a little surprising. Behind us through a window was a couple kissing, and Mitch found it funny to stand right at the window and stare at them. When they were over and the couple stood up it turned out that the guy was colossal. I mean, absolutely massive. About six foot six perhaps. Mitch regretted that, aha.
When I got home my mum had a little talk to me about my lateness again. Apparently she has to come in for a meeting to discuss my lateness, and that annoyed me to hear. That legitimately pissed me off to hear that. My mum was really annoyed with me though, and I can see why. My brothers never had this problem with lateness, and I’ve been slacking. Compromising my sleep for this and conversations. She’s going to have to go in some time next week apparently. I want to just talk to the higher ups in school myself and not have her come in. That’s so fucking troublesome.
And I also watched an episode of this show called The Undateables, and it’s about how those with learning difficulties and disabilities are out to find love through dating sites and all sorts. And it’s warming, it is. When I told Emmanuel about it he became really soppy and started to go on about how it’s so lovely that they can find love, and how everyone deserves love, and how he was really, really happy for them. He can be really soppy if you give him the opportunity to be. Haha, he has his moments.
And then came today. Remember how I said I’d try to improve on my lateness? Well I woke up late today. I woke up at 7:37 today. I looked at my phone and thought it said 06:37, but no, it doesn’t work that way. Turns out it was 7:37 and I threw myself out of bed. Just to let you know, I arrived to school on time with Serena, Pritesh, Vaju and Mamta, but it was not a fun morning.
I won’t fucking talk about every lesson I had because that’s just boring and nobody actually cares. On my way to my first period I stumbled upon Vishaal who was in a predicament. Being Head Boy and all, he was to provide a tour to people visiting. Problem is, he was wearing Vans at the time. And so he asked if we could swap for a while - that he wear my shoes and I wear his, and I went with it. And when things were over I gave them back. Easy as that. History was dull, Psychology was even more dull and I did nothing but drift during break. Sandeep and I have this handshake we do where we uh- we uh-… It’s quite hard to explain. Two clenched fists, one above the other and we bump them then swap from high to low and low to high, bump, push them together and then try go for a really extravagant clap. It rarely goes well for us to be honest. And when it does go well, the next one has to be even better. And so expectations are high and it’s hard for us to fulfill it, aha.
It was Naveesha’s birthday in year twelve today and she’d gotten a Vampire Knight fanbook as a present from a friend of hers that doesn’t even watch anime or read manga, which I thought was lovely of them. Her obsession may be a little creepy, but that’s great friendship right there. Plus she offered me cake. I’d tell you more about today’s day at sixth form, but to be frank I just don’t want to. It was as usual as any school day.
So I got home today, had a shower, got ready and was out again almost instantly. Remember the photography project I took part in along with Le-My, Chrisann, Tony and Toni back in summer? Well the exhibition and sort of opening event for Martin’s (who was in charge of it) project of lights under the bridge in Hackney Central was today, and only Chrisann and I made it. It was held in St Augustine’s Tower which has been there for more than four centuries, and it’s a shame because a lot of the younger lot living in Hackney really don’t appreciate what that means. It’s stood there for more than four centuries! It looked really old inside too, with a stain-glass window and incredibly steep stairs. I took Chrisann up to the roof of the tower and we could see the whole of East London and parts of Central London from it. And it was an amazing view, it’s just a shame that it was a cold winter evening, y’know?And it was really hard to get out onto the roof too. Not only were the stairs incredibly steep but there was a small hole for us to get through. And if someone tried going up, we couldn’t go down. The view of The Strand in the distance reminded me of this one time when Emmanuel and I was heading to Westfield and we could see The Strand in the tip hidden within the clouds. Anyway, long story short there was a local MP talking about Martin’s work and its contribution to the feel of Hackney and what not. And Chrisann and I had to speak briefly about the project too, and then people spoke to us afterwards and that was that. And I dropped her home. And it seems like Le-My had told her a bit about me because she knew my brothers’ names and what they’re doing currently and what not, and it was really funny because she figuratively took the words out of my mouth. And then she also mentioned that she reads my blog, and that was warming to hear. And she told me of how she loved it, and how she feels as if each entry is a little reflective at the end and leaves you feeling as if it’s a little incomplete. I wonder why. Perhaps it’s my Until Tomorrow that has that effect. I really couldn’t take the compliments and you’d have a laugh to know that the only sounds that came out were primitive squeals whilst somewhat blushing. I don’t blush but it’d be the equivalent. And I kept apologising. I dropped her home, and then, yeah. Got on the bus home.
I gave Le-My a call too to let her know how it went but she’s been ill as of lately and she couldn’t speak much. I hope she’s okay. She has an exam tomorrow, too. I really hope she’s okay. Good luck for her.
And funny enough, I saw Jenny today. She didn’t see me but I saw enough to know it was her. What I haven’t mentioned before is that her brother lives a road or two behind my house, and that she visits his place every now and then. Her niece is like two years younger than us, and so they’re quite close and while I was on the bus home I could see the two of them walking together down Maryland. I got off the bus and began to walk that way home but didn’t come across them again. No worries, I guess.
But that’s about it. I really want to sleep now, and I’m sorry to have had you read three disorganised entries in one. Apologies for any errors.
Thank you for reading.
Sleep well, take care and goodnight.